Going back as a student, when you are a mother..

I'm back!! If you have read my previous blog posts, which if you want a good read, I suggest you do ;) Then you can see that I was writing on how I was going back to college for a new career path, I also said I would update you on how it was going, so here I am doing this..

The first day was horrible, I cried so much all the way, they were so excited when I was saying good bye, that it upset me even worse, but as the first term carried on, I started to enjoy it, even though I was missing my gorgeous boys terribly, they were my motivation, to work harder.

I completed and passed all assigned assignments/tests, which is less stress, and I came home to quality time with my beautiful babies. The most positive thing out of it all? They have such a strong bond with their Daddy now as well, as he is with them, when I am in college, Jayden's first word was even ''DADADA'' at 6 months old! Of course, they had a strong bond beyond, but there is just something magical of me seeing them all play together, receiving photos of how much fun they are all having!

I always ramble on about how much I love my family, but it is because I really do! Even though waking up is hard to going to college, I have that motivation to do it for my babies. Every Mother has to go back to work some time, and even though it is hard to say good bye, it's even better when saying Hello again, and they have time to miss me, so when they see me, they are even more excited.

So overall, the first term has been amazing! With a massive load of secret tears (off me), but it's all normal, and better for all of us in the long term..
To be updated.

Pendine Sands Holiday: Diary

We, as in me and Callum, booked the holiday when the boys turned 6 months old, to go on holiday. We looked at a few places and thought that Pendine sands in Tenby would be an amazing idea, as it's close to the town center and Folly Farm..

On the monday we arrived, and walked around, whilst waiting for a caravan, we had a cup of tea and then decided to hit Tenby as it was still a few hours, and who like's waiting around? So we went for some lunch in this lovely little restaurant, if I recall, it was called the boathouse. It was amazing and at such a lovely price. 

The boys were so happy, it was like they could sense we were on holiday. 

After Tenby we got back, we got our keys. The caravan was small, but nice. We decided that we would unpack and feed the boys and head off to the entertainment,

by at this time greedy Callum, was ready to eat again, he had some chips and the boys fell asleep, so we didn't think it was really fair to wake them up, so we headed off to the caravan, lit the crisp warm fire and cwtched up.

Tuesday, came fast, and after the boys wouldn't settle, they came in with us, so we was all toasty warm. We were tired, but as it was sunny, we was ready to hit Folly Farm, we had bought the baby carrier, just for this occasion. It went so amazing, they loved being baby carried and got to see all the animals, it's such an amazing experience, seeing the boys so excited and intrigued by all the animals. Jayden loved the giraffes, and Luke loved the monkeys. Their wasn't really anything they didn't dislike. We didn't stay to long as we went round pretty fast, we did have some lunch in the burger bar. Then we headed off,

We then took the boys swimming for their FIRST time and they loved it. 

We had bought these amazing swimming rings, they were kicking their legs and laughing non stop, one thing that really peed me off, was the group of adults acting like monkeys and kept splashing the babies. 

This day was probably my favourite, seeing them experience new things, then night time hit and we went for a costal walk and had a hot chocolate to warm us all up.

Then adult time came, and Jayden and Luke went to bed and me and Callum played cards he made me laugh hysterically, I went to bed that day, very very happy.

Wednesday came and we thought we would head into the town and look around the shops, and grab some food, because the boathouse? was so amazing on the Monday, we decided to go back there and I had the best curry I have ever had. It was to die for.

Imagine now, pulled chicken tikka curry, sticky rosemary rice, and a poppadom. It was mouthwatering. After this we headed back into Pendine for a walk, me and Callum decided to grab a milkshake from the American diner they had, and as night time was hitting, we decided to see if the boys would stay up for the entertainment, so we went and they loved it! They got to meet the main character, Sid the seagull, which they weren't phased by, in fact they loved him. After this the lovely entertainers, put a mat out for them to play on, which they also loved by rolling around and playing with the toys. 

They did then fall asleep, but we brought the grow bags, so we cwtched them in these and the pram and let them. Me and Callum had a pint each,and played some bingo. Which was really enjoyable, to be able to do that. When the singer came on, he started to make the boys stir, so we left and put them to bed. We then went to bed our selves .

Thursday came and my Mum offered to come up, as we only live an hour away from Pendine, so we went for beach walks, had chip sandwiches, and all had a relaxing day. When it came to about three, I said to Callum that should we go home now, rather than the morning, as it would make more sense, as it was getting cold for the boys. So we packed up and was going home, In the car, I had quite an emotional moment. Were the tears were just falling from my eyes, not sad ones, but happy ones, I absoulutey loved my holiday and every memory that was made. I think everyone dreams of there perfect family, but I don't need to dream. My family are perfect and I love them with every inch I can give. 

Going back to work/studying

Going back to work/studying can be very daunting when you have had a baby, or again in my case babies..
My original plan was to wait a year and go to college, but September came a long and I got accepted in to college for an interview, I had a long hard think and thought, why not do it now? 
it will only be 6 hours a day, and then it's done with..
I got in and had my interview, which I got accepted into, they then proceeded to tell me, I would start straight away, it all become so real, very quickly.

I got home and I balled my eyes out, the thought of leaving my little saucepans.. don't ask, I have said it since birth.. I'm weird.
But anyway, here I am sobbing my heart out, even though I am ready to go out in the big world again, I would miss them in every single way possible. I will miss watching peppa pig, cleaning dirty nappies, them ripping my hair out and singing all day long. Even though those six hours will fly, those six hours, mean the world to me.
It has to be done though, when the boys are older, I want to be in a stable job, where I am doing what I want, and for them to see me happy and proud of me. That means the world to me, them to have a house over there heads.

Everybody has to go back to work at some point, it's so fricking nerve racking. Due my pregnancy, I lost my job to severe sickness and being admitted in to hospital, to be put on a drip. So I didn't do much socializing, when I was pregnant and then having children, your social life goes from 100-0 real quick. So even going to my interview, and seeing other people in that type of environment, was crazy, as most of their worries for example was ''hope we get paid ema soon, so we can go out a Friday'' and all I could keep thinking was ''I wonder if either of my sons has done an explosive nappy for my mother''. It will be strange, but I need to do this, for them.

I start on Monday, I'm nervous to the fact of socializing and leaving my little saucepans.. but I have been told it gets easier.. but I shall keep you all updated, and then maybe be able to give other mums advice. My boys are five moths going on six, so most Mother's go back to work around this time, so I'm not alone. *Crazy mum alert* I have already in my head wrote a schedule of what it's going to be like..
7am.. wake the boys up, give them breakfast.
8:30am.. leave the house
4pm.. feed the boys, on the way back home in the car
4:30pm.. give them their dinner
6:00pm.. bath, story, bottle, lots of cuddles and kisses and bed time for 7pm!
I hope this goes to plan, as I'm a bit of a plan freak, wish me luck and I shall keep you updated!!!